Wow

I can't believe that it's already been three months. It feels like school only started about a week ago. I've learned so much since I walked through the doors of that classroom. I've learned about art and other things as well as myself. I'm still unsure as to what I'm meant to be, but I've learned to be a more confident person.

When we first did improve, it was the first time that I actually acted in front of people. Acting with Becky is really fun, but since it was only my first time, I was really unsure of what to do. But being actually able to act in front of people really gave me confidence.

I also love the art we do. It's great not actually having to paint objects. It was fun when we painted with music. I thought that the music really gave me inspiration and it really showed me how much I love saturated colors!

And just on friday, I realized how much I have changed. When we talked about how losing a parental figure helps a person to change, I really understood it. When I lived with my father, I felt as if I couldn't really be myself. He wasn't exactly the best person to have as a father either. I feel as if I never actually had a father figure in my life. But when we left him, even though I somehow felt alone, I actually felt that I could be myself. I spoke out more and did more art. I really began to sing a lot. I feel like I'm actually able to spread my wings without him pushing them back down.

But there is one thing I fear. Lizy said that she is bored with her art. I'm not bored with my art now, but I fear that somewhere in the future that I ma become bored with it. I think that's why I have so many goals in life. I want to do this and I want to do that. I think it's because I fear that one things that I love the most will somehow become second to something else. I really don't know that if I choose one thing that I will someday regret it. I think that's my biggest fear.

But even so, I hope that maybe something will change this fear. I don't want to choose something that will become boring. I really don't even know where I want my life to go. But with time, I think that maybe if I can become a stronger person, I won't have to worry so much.